I think being uncertain is as normal as being certain. The message I was trying to get across however is that it’s an internal process and nobody can tell you you’re wrong. Obviously there is an internal struggle as well because identity is something so inherent to the human experience that when your identity is challenged in a serious way, there’s going to be some level of dissonance.
Struggling is fine. You’re not abnormal, I promise. It’s just a process because questioning your own identity means you’re going against the social expectation of ‘normality’. Despite being on HRT myself, and ‘coming out’ to myself internally years before starting my transition, I still find myself having those thoughts of self-doubt.
I wish I was as certain in my identity as you’re implying is normal. I’m also autistic, so that might be why I struggle with it.
I think being uncertain is as normal as being certain. The message I was trying to get across however is that it’s an internal process and nobody can tell you you’re wrong. Obviously there is an internal struggle as well because identity is something so inherent to the human experience that when your identity is challenged in a serious way, there’s going to be some level of dissonance.
Struggling is fine. You’re not abnormal, I promise. It’s just a process because questioning your own identity means you’re going against the social expectation of ‘normality’. Despite being on HRT myself, and ‘coming out’ to myself internally years before starting my transition, I still find myself having those thoughts of self-doubt.
Well I started HRT yesterday, so let’s hope that makes me happy!
Congrats! Hope everything goes great for you! Just remember: it’s a marathon, not a sprint.