Please leave me alone

Thank you

You are the one who presumed to know what I do or don’t actually want. Thank you for your attempt at kindness but it really didn’t come off like that to me. I think its best to end this interaction here as its not going to be productive for either of us. Sorry.

Edit: oh i thought you were the person who I was responding too but you are not… in that case please leave me alone, thankyou…

i wasn’t asking for advice and its not welcome

sometimes people will really fuckin hurt you and you won’t ever get an apology

im trying very hard to quit smoking weed… i know it’s not the same as nicotine addiction but it’s still a struggle. I smoked weed almost every day for like 6 years or something.

its annoying cus like i will be reminded of it constantly, weed culture is everywhere, memes and shows and movies and books. I get reminded and i want it, I get the urge and its hard not to smoke a little. i will go days or weeks without any but then I will fuck up and smoke again and suddenly i will be smoking every day again for a few weeks.

Basically any and all compliments make me feel like shit, it’s not a good quality of mine but its the truth

Before I transitioned being called handsome hurt, I didn’t want that. Since I transitioned I have been called beautiful and sexy. I still feel bad, I don’t believe them. It’s odd because… I can kinda see what they mean? Like I personally like how I look sooo much better now it’s insane, but from other people it feels like a lie. Or else it makes me feel like I’m just an object to them, like an exotic sex thing, not a person.

I work as a gpu/graphics programmer, and people say I’m smart and talented. I never believe it, ever. When I was young I did not do well in school, like special ed classes. That early life experience is still internalized. It’s why I push myself really hard at the detriment of my own health. I truly believe I am not a smart person despite recognizing why people think I am.

Last year I was diagnosed autistic with Persistent Demand Avoidance sub type. I have read online that PDA people often struggle with compliments. Its super fucked tbh, I can never feel good about any accomplishment, nothing is enough, and I feel unlovable.

Can you elaborate on what “subpoenable information” means. Like I have a vague idea but im not super clear if thats like a legal term with special considerations or whatever. Elaboration would be helpful.

Alcohol, I just dont like the taste

I smoke weed occasionally but even that I have been trying to cut out cus I abused it for years

Not being able to talk about capitalism in a tech community is like having a fishing community and not being able to talk about how the waters got shit in it.

Pop my knees

I could probably say the same about AI and crypto and mega yachts sure

But healthcare, housing, education, childcare, sustainable green energy, sustainable food production… All of them seem way more important than sending more junk into orbit.

The fact that you think these things are even remotely comparable is kinda part of the problem

Seriously how are space launches a priority right now when we are facing global ecological collapse

Yeah people don’t understand how bad the MH industry can be. Its why these things shouldn’t be gatekept, it should just be available under informed consent.

A thing that is really frustrating about a lot of health care providers is they insist on using outdated “best practice” blood levels for trans fem HRT which puts our estradiol levels significantly lower than cis women.

Im lucky that I have a dr in cali who is good and insists on me having proper estradiol levels but in the past they were significantly lower with other doctors. And I can absolutely tell the difference I feel so much better with my current levels and physically the effects are noticable as well.

Thats what my brother does, but he is a cis het man who works in construction as an electrician. He is very left leaning so he does try to challenge things where he can.

But I can’t do that. I am a trans woman and confrontation legitimately would put me in danger and it wouldn’t work anyways. People claim I am biased because I am in a group who is being targeted, its bullshit beyond belief but thats how people are.

Your understanding of the effects of immigration is childish.

Bad take… truely advocating for the devil here…

Lemmy is going downhill pretty fast… just today there was a transphobic meme that got hundreds of upvotes before getting removed (at least i cant see it anymore from blahaj). Feels like crap like this is getting more and more common every day.