I was violently sexually assaulted after being drugged. I was then accused of physically assaulting the person who violently sexually assaulted me.
As a result of that accusation of physical assault, I spent time involuntarily at a psychiatric hospital that was extremely corrupt. Patients often were physically hurt, some died of neglect, and the staff who worked there were often emotionally abusive. Additionally, when patients complained or tried to exercise legal remedies to leave, they were often retaliated against, with corrupt psych tech workers writing lies in the charts of patients who lacked subservience. They killed one of my friends (by treating her medical illness as psychiatric, drugging her to the point she couldn’t stand… she saying she felt like her heart was beating so fast it was going to break, she screamed as they kept drugging her, until the physical disease made major advancements due to neglect and killed her). Worst of all, they all thought they were so wonderful and did not let people out unless they expressed “gratitude” and how wonderful the awful place was. Many of the workers there tried to proselytize patients when others weren’t around. To say I hate them all is a gross understatement and although I’m not religious, I hope one day there is a special version of hell for all of them and that they suffer greatly.
In order to deal with their corruption, I agreed with everything they said, even the stuff that made no sense. I was sometimes diagnosed with illnesses I clearly didn’t have. For example, they would say something like “It looks like you have trichotillomania” (this is a disorder in which people compulsively remove hair) and I would be like “yep, makes sense” despite having a full head of hair, no scabs, and no hallmark signs of trichotillomania, and I would literally agree with their stupid conclusions because I thought it would make it more likely I wouldn’t be killed by their neglect. (By their neglect, I mean that they regularly kept the most violent psychotically unstable patients with others who were vulnerable and every day was a random chance of death.) Most of the people who worked there were morons, and I left the facility without a PTSD diagnosis despite having frequent flashbacks of being sexually assaulted. I did not mention flashbacks or try to get any care there because they were all psychologically abusive and nothing good ever happened there. They also diagnosed me with many disorders (possibly over 10? I lost track of all the bullshit) and said I needed about 10 different medications, many of which were tranquilizers, many of which I had spit into the toilet for the long duration of my stay. I promised I would take them all… forever… and was so grateful… and eventually left. The hospital left me psychologically much much more damaged and the only thing it really did is teach me how to lie better.
As soon as I was out as a result of agreeing with their idiocy, I threw out all the pills and got a full-time job doing [redacted]. Fast forward [redacted] years after my release, and I still have a full time job and medical insurance which I have actually never used during my entire employment. I get what are possibly panic attacks whenever I am near any hospital. But I am trying to get medical care because I have an unexplained lump. I am looking for a primary care doctor and every place has something called “MyChart” and multiple places have information, including my social security number and address at this involuntary facility, something I never said MyChart could have, never agreed to. Yet again, my boundaries are not being respected.
So I consider my prior address at this facility to be personally identifiable information and Social Security number to be personally identifiable. I did not sign a HIPPA release to willingly share this with MyChart. I also spoke with several hospitals and they said that even if set up a different profile, because there’s the same social security number, they will eventually be merged.
Doctors are incredibly expensive. I do not want to talk with each new doctor, at 500 dollars an hour, about a sexual assault and past diagnosis at a hospital which I only supplied invalid information to in the hopes of leaving quickly enough to not be killed. I just want a damn lump looked at to find out if I have cancer. I hate doctors, I probably have worse PTSD from being in that shithole of a facility but will never know because I will never talk with a psychiatrist or psychologist again and I sometimes also get flashbacks of the hospital. I generally avoid medical care entirely because of that awful place and am only dealing with this now because there’s a lump that is quite possibly cancerous.
Every doctor will want to ask me about this at 500 dollars an hour, every doctor will want me to sign a release and charge me for reviewing these records and may refuse to provide care if I don’t once they see I was in this horrible place. They will want me to pay 500 an hour or more to explain why I disagree with each diagnosis. It’s a horrible waste of money, it’s invasive of my privacy, and I have NEVER consented for any of this medical information to be shared with a central database called MyChart. I’m terrified of being held against my will and forcibly drugged again just by seeing a doctor.
Is this something that is legal under HIPPA? For all of this information to be sent to MyChart without my consent, which inherently shares things like address information and prior places of treatment with any provider that has this? This seems like it should actually be protected information under HIPPA (who I’ve seen, previous addresses, all linked to my social). Multiple potential providers knew of my address at this horrible psychologically abusive facility, at which point I told them I would have to see someone else. Am I able to demand that MyChart delete a profile about me?
I am so fucking angry. My privacy is always stolen from me. I’m not a perfect person, but I just want medical care without having to be charged 500 an hour for someone to be required under their own ethical rules to pressure me to see a doctor and get drugged and discuss a being sexually assaulted. I just want a lump looked at. I just want medical care for the specific things I need medical care for.
If there is no way to stop this, I will just continue to not get medical treatment and if the pain gets worse or it spreads, I’ll just overdose on something like heroin so I can avoid interacting with doctors. The flashbacks of the rape and from the hospital constantly bother me, perhaps death is alright. I just have no privacy, I can’t have any privacy at all. That hospital taught me clearly: my boundaries do not matter. My body, that’s not private… and when I was locked up they forced me, on threat of not releasing me (which could mean death) to discuss things over and over with all sorts of new people, including group therapy with patients I disliked that was effectively required or they wouldn’t release me, including new doctors who rotated in and out of a facility. I hope it was elucidating for those rotating fucks and that they learned something from my forced discussions, which were done under fear of death, since they moved non-compliant patients to more violent areas of the hospital. I just give up, fuck medical care.
Can MyChart do this? I feel like they are violating me all over again and I want everything they have about me deleted forever. I also have never authorized MyChart during those times, never said it was okay.
No, I never signed any of the forms when I was initially involuntarily admitted. They said I was required to sign some forms and I refused because I thought they could have some sort of legal impact and I didn’t have a lawyer with me. Some of them were things about charging me fees.
They told me I had to, and that the forms didn’t change anything, and I still refused to sign.
I absolutely did not sign forms when I entered. It was only after I felt the threat of death that I occasionally signed things, and I did not sign anything saying they could release my information to something called MyChart.
You probably think I’m an idiot because I went to a psychiatric facility, but my IQ has tested as a 130 in a controlled setting and I generally have a very specific memory.
They also did not use electronic records when I was there, although that’s likely changed now. You’re wrong.
Sounds like a lawyer is in order then, as one of those forms may have given them the go ahead. Nobody but those present would necessarily know that you were signing under duress.
And MyChart is simply branding of your electronic medical record. I am not aware of any limitation on converting paper charts into EMR data either. It’s all HIPAA compliant and only those treating you are able to see this data. People lose their jobs regularly for improper EMR access.
And FWIW, I don’t think it’s especially cool to go at someone who seems to be honestly sharing their advice.
It felt like gaslighting to me. Like, “Oh, well, you must be a moron and this nice hospital is right and you’re just too simple to understand the forms.” It sort of felt like the same logic I often got at that awful place, he has a rhinoplasty name, which likely means he’s a doctor.
I don’t really think it’s dishonest to call doctors vultures; they financially exploit people in vulnerable positions for exorbitant fees while the AMA makes it hard for the many people who want to become doctors to practice by limiting medical school entrances and also not allowing tiers of medical specialists to alleviate costs. Pharmacists could easily prescribe certain medications. I think doctors are often very polite vultures, but vultures none the same. They do things to limit competition when there is an extremely inelastic need for some of their services; it’s the definition of corrupt.
But I suppose he may not be a doctor, so in that sense you’re right, I shouldn’t have accused him of being one, but this didn’t feel like advice to me, but more likely a defense of other doctors and hospital workers.
I could be totally wrong however. Maybe she’s a professional golfer, randomly had a rhinoplasty, and was just offering an opinion.
Upon further reflection, you may be right: this is a very anger-inducing topic for me, but it’s not like he was the one who treated me poorly there or killed the woman i met there due to neglect, or lead to the beatings and killings that took place there. I’ll edit the post.
I don’t think a lawyer would say anything other than file a complaint with the OCR. It seems unlikely I could sue for damages. I could at best sue for emotional distress, if HIPPA violations allow for that and they probably don’t, and to do that I would need to prove emotion, which a court would say requires a mental health expert. Pass.