I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
This isn’t overly helpful I suppose, but I enjoy being alone. I go out to eat by myself, to the movies, shopping. So my suggestion is do the things you enjoy regardless.
I wear it like armor. When you don’t need people, they become a bonus in an already happy life.
I’ve done that for years, going to the arcade alone, watching MCU movies (when they were still watchable)… It gets sadder every year