Why do you not feel cis? Maybe your identity lies in the non-binary spectrum.

Yeah I don’t have a good answer for this. Not do I know how to get one. I’ve kind of always thought I really was a girl, just too scared to transition or admit it. But very recently I’m questioning that. I don’t necessarily think I’m a girl. But I know that being a “guy” just isn’t right either.

I guess I’m not totally even sure what “non binary” even means. Like, I’ve always felt like it was a cop out kind of identity. And maybe that is just more residence that it resonates with me and is something scary or IDK. It’s hard for me to accept what non binary actually means, and especially how it relates to identifying as trans. Assuming the non binary label fits what I am, am I “trans”?

And there’s the added layer of Baldwin being the producer

He was A producer

Lol dangerous?

as the lack of humidity means you don’t sweat

Wtf? That’s not his that works

Fuck off with this bullshit. Talk therapy is good but it’s not a solution.

A little bit a long time ago. Was hard for me to get into

Kind of the wrong direction there. I WANT to sleep, but I can’t.

I’m in a different physical location than normal for the next month, so my routine is totally thrown off. I’m not saying I won’t feel like this in a month. I’m sure I’ll still be having issues. But that’s a different situation I’ll deal with when I get there, and I’d like to get there as soon as possible to just get this over with.

Unfortunately some people don’t have time to post that kind of bullshit on lemmy

The days are normally ok. I can find activities to do. It’s night time, when I’m supposed to be tired and going to sleep that it’s the hardest.

It’s hard to get the motivation to do a project. I’m really looking for something totally mindless. Like, exercise is a good one, but I do a lot of that during the day and it starts to get unhealthy and unproductive. I end up at night doing a lot of pacing, or stuff like that. I was hoping for something the equivalent of pacing but that isn’t physical. I don’t know. I think I’m just grasping at straws that there’s some solution to this that I haven’t thought of.

Time also goes by faster at night if youre tired so getting some exercise during the day might help.

I do a ton of exercise during the day. You’d think I’d be tired at night and able to sleep, but nope. Doesn’t matter how many miles I run or walk or hike.

I’m the same. I read super slow, and I just don’t enjoy it really. Audiobooks are hard for me too. I like podcasts sometimes, and I read a lot of articles and stuff like that. But books are just too much for me.

I heard opioids also make doing jack shit easy.

Opiods and benzos help. That is something that will likely happen this month but I only have so many. And it only helps because it’s a change. If I took them every day I’d just need more and shit. So, those will come and help me sleep when I need it, not an every day thing.

Alcohol doesn’t help anyway.

Learn to program

I’m a software engineer. I make really good money. I’m off work this week, but then next week, and also the weekends.

Go touch grass and walk

I run every day

Work out doesnt need to be much.

This actually is the problem for me. Running and working out actually help. But it only kills a couple hours, and then if I do more it’s not healthy and I’ll injure myself.

As Jordan Peterson would say go clean up ur room and make your bed.

Are you shitting me? You’re quoting jordan peterson?

Ugh I wish I could fall asleep early. It’s sooo hard to fall asleep before 2am or so. And then I haven’t been able to sleep past 7am or so. Which is why I said other than sleep. It’s just really hard for me to sleep, even if I’ve been incredibly active during the day.

That’s kind of exactly what I’m asking. What kinds of things would fall under that?

I actually occasionally do volunteer at a shelter. It’s a good idea, but I’m mostly asking about things to do once all the available “activities” are over. Let’s say, starting at 9pm or so

I had been on zoloft for a while but stopped a few years ago. I actually just started again very recently. We’ll see if that works.

Weed doesn’t help for me, it makes me more anxious. TV also helps for a little bit