BirdEnjoyer

my thoughts exactly

The .hack// timeline had net Epos rivaling the likes of the Odyssey and Beowulf.

…Is that the problem? We need more epic poetry to guide neural interface and AI development?

Its because they ran into the loudest, most annoying vegans.

IDK how, maybe different areas have more militant vegans, or maybe they just roll with negative stereotypes and the algorithm bs that lets the worst folks float to the top of their media feeds.

I’ve actively sought out vegans because they have great advice on dietary restriction resources and as long as you’re respectful of their choices, they’ve been consistently so willing to share.

And they also really love a good breakfast, in my experience, like the local vegan group has just pages of discussion on good vegan donut resources.

All the alcoholism in both sides of my family, and I’m fretting about my liver, when I’m taking less than the recommended dose of a prescribed medication that could change my life if I could take more.

And I’m on a COPD inhaler and I’ve never touched any death sticks at all.

Life isn’t fair, I 100% feel you.

I also literally felt you when they put me on amitriptyline and that gave me hbp and they kept trying to act like it wasn’t that big a deal- that with all my other health problems, my blood pressure would start getting off, and I’d have stress, yadda yadda.

It really does feel physically horrible, especially the headaches and sleep issues.

My biggest advice is to never be afraid about a second- or third or fourth opinion with your health, and be gentle but persistent with your goals.

Its the art of pushing without breaking.

Now, this is the experience for me and some unhealthy overachievers, so take the following with a grain of salt:

A lot of times people with underlying health issues actually function their whole lives by pushing until they crash, but hide their crash, and just assume everyone else hides the meltdowns/16-hour sleeps/weekly puke sessions/etc too.

If that happens to describe you, then you’re going to need to get comfortable with giving just 25% effort in a lot of things until you can safely figure out how to actually not hurt yourself.

I’m serious.

Step out of your skin, and treat yourself as you would your precious little sibling or something. Dote on yourself.

Aaand I’ve typed too much. It gets my own stuff going. But good luck.

My phone in school. It was a smartphone, back before smartphones were quite the norm, so it was a big deal, and I was in another state as a minor, so I did need a phone. There was some two for one deal, so my parent got theirs and mine, so it wasn’t quite so bad, but it was technically a pricy bit of tech.

Campus was on a hill, so I stumbled and dropped it while walking down the stairs.

I think it would translate to, like, five stories of stairs if it was in a building and not on a hill?

It never went into the grass, just kept bouncing down stairs. 🤦

Yeah, the doggy door bell turned into the “Attention” bell instead of the “Outside” bell for a while for us.

Then when she realized we made her go out every time, she stopped using it and went back to a little wuffle.

My dog responds to swear words by doing the kinds stuff you see emotional support dogs do in videos- press on your chest, give you kisses, nuzzle your face, etc.

Except she’s small, blind, and a bit… intense, so she kinda launches into you if you’re sitting, with some intense affection.

IDK why. I guess we don’t swear very often, ao when we do, its special, and we swear with enough gusto for her to think we’re very, very upset.

I find it way more reasonable than, “Dear [random informal business acquaintance].”

I can genuinely say I hope someone is well. I can’t sincerely call them my dear.

But we’re supposed to get weirdly personal in our formal written salutations apparently

Just to let you know, the whole thing where you look back on every little thing you do and cringe won’t magically go away when you’re an adult.

That’s a self-esteem thing, not a teenager thing.

I guess what I’m saying is that this is one of those things that can get better, but won’t just magically get better on its own. It didn’t get better for me until I got some control in my physical health (stuff that would affect my perspective) and took agency in my mental health.

If you’re in the situation to do so, check out what kind of therapy resources are available to you. You can just try a bunch until you find one that really clicks, and a lot offer free brief consultations.
Many employers offer 4-10 free visits for any immediate family members/offspring, too!

I’m sorry you feel so critical of yourself all the time. Its so draining to live like that.

The 90’s mentality of “Everyone on an Internet is a predator out to rob you or worse” left a mark on me-
I always use a fake name and innocuous, random profile pic if possible.

These daus you’re still screwed if someone’s that determined, but at least screw the corporations like this.

The mockingbirds are so lucky the hummingbirds don’t care, because they are shimmery little warrior badasses.

I started using two so I could more easily remote game with my sibling.

The second one would have their screen stream up, so it was like we were playing split screen co-op back in the day. :)

Basically. Do this, don’t do that.
I think that they thought glaring at people in person would be more effective?

But this was for the early admissions students, so they had to have the appearance of doing things, I guess.
But punishing non-problem students with good grades, acting as normal students seems so ridiculous.

They literally called my mom over this and she laughed at them. I was so proud of her.

Finding out that my migraine medication had the side effect of improving my sleep quality was really incredible, so I’ll say its a lot of problems.

I was punished for missing mandatory dorm meetings by washing the same car that multiple other people had already washed.

I missed said meetings because I was doing night classes and workstudy.

All of the content of said dorm meetings could have been taken care of with a paragraph email, hut apparently I was supposed to hunt down the RA whenever they felt like giving me their time, when I was already taking, like, 18-25 hours, doing extracurriculars and workstudy, and also regularly puking my brains out from the uncontrolled migraine disorder.

I stopped caring about their authority after that.

I mean more in the broad sense- to hope that there’s going to be any action at all towards something one personally likes.

My standards are pretty low I guess.

Its a vague undulation in a direction I think most folks here would probably prefer?

That’s kinda all you can realistically hope for a lot of the time

Now, I do wonder if one could use printing and a pantograph to somehow create small, but marginally viable records.

Sounds like a stupid challenge someone would make a YouTube challenge from, really

…And of course I just now finally persuasive my mother to start looking into Discord.

She’s a pretty connected Boomer who likes new books, movies and shows and is in desperate need of friends to talk to about her nerdy interests.

But Discord is deciding to inshitify right as she’s starting to warm up to the idea of online communities. She probably wouldn’t care about things like the username stuff, but Ads? Yeah, eww.

I’ve been trying to set up a space for this split keyboard/Accessability computer stuff, and I have, like, five ~50gb hard drives from yeeears ago. ( I was the designated data backer-upper of the friend/family circle)

I could see how things could get out of hand for the true memelord