No.

No one should want to be me.

If someone wanted to be me I’d feel nothing but pity and shame.

An excellent contrapoints video explores this topic https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aPhrTOg1RUk

I remember your handle - IIRC you posted before about having Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Wanting people to be jealous of you seems apropos.

No, quite honestly I do want to live an enviable life AND would be so happy if everyone else did too. I do not want other people to literally want my life, no. I want them to be too happy with their own lives to care about mine.

No, I don’t want to attract thieves and weird fans.

nope nope nope. I want to be incredibly anonymous.

Hell no. The green monster can friggin kill you

I dont know you, but this sounds like narcissistic personality disorder.

Not really. I find when people are jealous they either try to cut you down in subtle ways, or they self deprecate and guilt trip just because you happen to have something going right for you.

I’d like to be admirable, I think. I’d prefer to rub off on people in a positive way than a negative one.

I’ve had people jealous of me. People who tried to steal my spouse or thought they would be so happy living my life.

It didn’t make me one bit happier. Sometimes it made me suffer, that they didn’t see that things were really difficult for me in ways that were invisible.

That feeling that I thought was wanting a perfect life was really needing anxiety meds I am way happier with well-adjusted meds.

Here’s the thing tho. Nobody thinks about you even 1% of what you think they do. It seems like youre saying, “I need validation and want to be a part of the bigger world outside my own” which is totally fair. It’s even healthy, especially when compared to escapism and isolation. If your actions and behavior cause people to have a negative reaction, i.e. jealousy, obsessions, I encourage you to reevaluate what’s within yourself that desires that negative attention. People will think of you far far more if your behavior and actions gives those around you positive reactions. Trade the desire to make them jealous for inspiring them by being a healthy, upstanding rolemodel. Trade “I” statements for “you” questions. People crave and are drawn to those who show an interest in them, just as you admit to in this post. Make the world a better place, not a more anxious place and you’ll find all that attention you desire becomes a far more reasonably attainable goal.

Emphatically no. I cut people concerned with jealousy out of my life. That shit’s toxic.

God no. I wouldn’t want to be jealous of me

Not at all

No, i wouldn’t like to be a center of attention.