I’m really convinced everyone in my life really sees me as a full time chore to take care of, I’m actually convinced at this point everyone in my life is a part of a coordinated phyop to keep me from killing myself, everyone has their own option about me but they agree to be outwardly nice. For thoose who don’t understand I’m a chronic emotional abuser, like I don’t outright threaten to kill myself but everyone around me knows I’m always on the verge to sucide. I’m legitimately a toxic horrible person that holds my friends hostage.
I genuinely think they are. Look at how they frame their question, they didn’t say they were on the verge of suicide at this moment, they just implied it heavily. That is a tactic to manipulate people and conversations. So I think their assessment is accurate.