My inability to experience joy and save it to my long term memory.
I really love my family and don’t ever want to hurt them.
I just wish they could be happy without me around every day.
I miss having time for myself.
I also love other people and want to be with them as well.
I just feel chained.
I’m not good with people. I’m perpetually a loner on the internet. My coworkers have a tendency to keep me going but sometimes they don’t get along and I’m at a loss for what to do with myself. Even though it’s not my problem, I make it my own because I’m an evil narcissist. There is no place on this planet for an asshole weirdo like me.
Government corruption and corporatism that lead to ANYTHING that is in my best interest being locked behind exceedingly impossible profit motives. Citizens United, first past the post, a two party system, capitalism, the CIA, the World Bank: they are all to blame for the life getting less and less enjoyable and more filled with work.
Health scare currently got me down. Good odds it’s fine, but the possibilities range from “nothing to worry about” to “easily treatable” to “unpleasantly treatable” all the way down to “terminal”.
Just last week I was contentedly playing darts at the bar with a date!
Appreciate your health while you have it.
Eh, it’s probably nothing major dude. We’re constantly worrying about stuff that almost never ends up happening.
Doctor said it’s nothing to worry about, but follow up in six months. So that’s a relief. 😅
Glad to hear, thanks for the update!
Probably the chronic debilitating disease I have that saps my energy and concentration and massively limits what I can do. Other than that, things are honestly pretty good.
