I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Considering your comments, you are probably in a mindset where I’d recommend reading the funny named “How to Be Miserable” by Randy Patterson. https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/25898044-how-to-be-miserable
If books are too much right now, you can get a great summary by CGP Grey’s video based on it https://youtube.com/watch?v=LO1mTELoj6o Be sure to watch the footnote video after too (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qGCAE1jte8)