I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
Joke answer: this is the Fediverse… we don’t!
Real answer: consider a pet, like if you are an indoor person (you said gaming) then perhaps a cat?
The hardest part of all is learning to accept and thereby being able to live with yourself. That will take some therapy - by which I mean effort and time, maybe money if you have it - and is so worth it, bc our parents fucked us up something fierce.
But in the meantime, a pet will love you forever if you treat it right.
We have already a pet, it’s really nothing life changing.