Just got diagnosed today with early onset dementia. I don’t want to be so far gone or drugged up to be functional. I would like to be a nurse for at the least the next ten years to help people. I would i don’t know what they call it nowadays but die with some at least dignity? Also if you have mental problems and are thinking about it in the US dial 988
In Canada, we have Medical Assistance In Dying. MAID.
In early COVID, my oncle was diagnosed with non-hodgekins lymphoma. It’s a cancer, I think. His blood transfusions got really frequent just as we were getting into COVID, and he knew he wouldn’t outlast it. And, every visit to the hospital in his condition would mean a deadly infection or virus that he could also bring home and afflict his wife or his girls or the granddaughter one was carrying.
So, on one random Tuesday, the family gathered and told stories and hugged. And the he hit the morphine button the nurse had set up. And he left shortly after 5.
It’s legal, but they’ll make you sit for a psyche first. It’s free. It’s humane.
Another uncle had cancer for 37 years. A model of modern medicine, he was the shell of a man but he’d lived a life. He got pneumonia one Christmas, and when the doctor asked what he thought, he refused care and asked for palliative. His care changed rapidly and he had a very comfy few days before departure.
I hope you’re living in northern Europe or Canada. MAID doesn’t stop suicides, but it makes them more humane.
In Queensland, Australia, we passed a Voluntary Assisted Dying law a few years ago. But it’s worth noting that it probably would not apply to OP’s condition. One of the eligibility criteria is “expected to cause death within 12 months”, and another is “Have decision-making capacity” which means that long-term progressive diseases which take away mental faculties long before they cause death, as Alzheimer’s does, are unfortunately not eligible.