What helped me a ton was getting other issues in my life fixed. Especially getting my ADHD meds really made things a lot easier. Starting off small with fingernail paint like I’ve heard here or growing out your hair is an incredible confidence booster. And if you can’t do even fingernails yet, do your toenails and never wear anything open toed. You still have that “hehehe I’m doing something girly” without the struggle of someone seeing anything. (Also helped me a lot getting over the “oh my god, my feet are so huge and manly and ugly” feeling)

I think you should keep in mind that transition timelines and success stories are just that. Stories about specifically the success, not the full story…

Over all I’m incredibly happy with my transition but I feel like for almost all of us, there is going to be at least one wrench in all of it. Friends/Family we had to cut out of our lives, belittlement from people, outright discrimination, or even just the nightmare that getting HRT is.

You got this, even if it takes you time. And you’re not alone in your struggles!

I used to use a (female) nickname for anonymity sake on the internet sometimes and it kinda grew on me…

Since I liked both that nickname and by dead name somewhat, I decided that I’d try a mix between the 2 names and it sorta worked but I was never really convinced. That was until I was going through some old google accounts of mine and noticed that I had a profile pic of a character from a game that I really liked and was incredibly similar to the mix between my nick- and dead name (and could be considered gender neutral).

The only issue was: since it’s a very uncommon name, not only did no one know how to spell it, there was also a very good chance that the responsible government agency for name changing stuff would outright reject the name because for some reason you can’t have a uncommon/strange name (the rules are extremely vague).

So while that game char name grew on me for a year, I basically had to come up with the name that I actually took within like 2 weeks because of other regulatory issues…

So I picked a pretty common name where I can say “oh, please use [game char name] as a nickname”. Don’t get me wrong, I quite like the name I took but especially with friends/family it just feels way too serious in comparison. With most people even at work I go by the game char name as a nickname tho and I love it ( ᵔ▽ᵔ)

Edit: I also thought about using the female version of my former middle name - Valentina, but I have too many bad memories of getting made fun of my former middle name… Now that I think about it tho, I might add Valentina back as a middle name in the future

The most i’ll allow you to do is draw the pentagram with your blood and even then only if you let me patch you up afterwards properly (ó﹏ò｡)

Let’s just embrace it, we are a cult now. This means we need sacrifices!

The only question now is, are we gonna pick this guy or JK Rowling first to sacrifice

Also I’m sure someone else has told you that already but don’t wait for estrogen or a name change until anything. The faster you get it done, the happier you will be

I hated my face too… Pre HRT some of my facial features where just so masc, quoting a friend of mine “you got a jawline more chiseled than roman statues”. HRT doesn’t change bone structure so I was devastated that I’d be stuck with that until I could get ffs. But what it does do however is round off facial features. My jawline didn’t go away, it got covered. I’m at a point where I am so happy with myself in general that I can’t even describe how it feels. I don’t think I could bare even a single day going back to how I used to look…

HRT does wonders. There is no other way for me to describe it. You just need to give it the time it needs

Had a similar experience in Austria (even tho people say that it’s easier here). Pretty much took me a year too and I optimized the hell out if the waiting times with stuff like writing several doctors at once and seeing who would give me the fastest appointment.

I still have to go to Germany soon… The waiting time for bottom surgery in Austria is 5-6 years…

Yea getting a compliment from a girl really shines up your entire day. I actually get a lot of compliments because of my style (basically a passing gothy tomboy) and every time it happened it just make me want to melt. Actually get hugs out of it sometimes too ;w;

Man, my prediction with my paintball gun was on point. The Mission 4 is literally the paintball gun I have, modified to shoot with CO2 capsules. Modded Tippmann TMC elite, it even still has the Tippmann logo molded into both the lower receiver and the grip

I can tell you from experience, the TMC is very reliable and effective but maybe not the most accurate (although I suspect that this is more of a skill issue on my part)

Umarex has something very similar with their T4E lineup. Basically co2 paintball markers (chambered down from .68 cal to .50 or .43) that are made to look like a real gun (like their glock 17 or PPQ, both of which I was thinking about buying back when I had money) that can also shoot pepper balls or rubber balls for self defense. I’ve heard though that the pepper balls aren’t as effective as a dedicated spray.

From that description, it almost sounds like my paintball gun :D

In all seriousness though, if it’s new then i’m 99% sure that it’s allowed considering our government. Never heard of them tho

That’s actually really cool.

I’m just sadly not in the US. if you’d want to apply for a carry permit here you’d need to prove that you’re at higher risk of being targeted (like being a politician, minorities don’t really count…). Even so, since after a recent school shooting our government is overhauling the gun law, I’ll probably won’t ever be able to own a gun at all ever.

Long story short: every man at age 18 has to get a check if they are fit for the military or civil service and have to chose one if they are. The school shooter didn’t pass the psychological test at the military but passed the gun owners permit psych eval. And now they are considering banning people who fail the psych evaluation from the military from ever getting a gun, which would include me since I was still registered as male at that time.

The only hope I have is that they see during the gun ownership evaluation that I’m female so I didn’t have to go to the military evaluation and ignore that.

Would really suck if I couldn’t because I’m a pretty big gun fanatic…

(Country is Austria btw)

The “gun” i mentioned is a pepper gun. It is a small plastic gun-like thing in the price range of 30-50€ and shoots pepper like a pepper spray

Edit: where I’m from, carrying an actual gun is pretty much illegal for regular civilians

My hips to waist ratio actually got worse on HRT because of weight gain…

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Date idea: we board the ICE to Köln Hbf and play with our Nintendo 3DS together for the entire ride 👉👈🥺

now paint the rest of the body too for full femininity

470 hours of playtime and still missing achievements?

That actually reminds me of something that happened to me at work (before I was out as trans to my colleagues but already knew I was trans).

I was together at a work site with a pretty homo-/transphobic colleague. Even back then I didn’t look particularly male because of my naturally feminine body type and long hair.

We had to go into a clean room, which means for me: making a tight pony tail and stuffing it under a clean room hood (it’s a tight fit). Ngl it took me quite a bit. Since this colleague wasn’t very happy with that, he wanted to be mean and guess what he did:

He derogatorily called me “princess” :3

In my head I was like: heheheh theenkk youuu, if only you would know what you just did

Hmm why are you specifically looking for trans people?

What about patches or gels? From what i’ve heard, patches seem to be pretty reliable