Oh hello, are you me?

I’ve been watching Elena Darlingg recently, and got a bad case of “wow, she’s amazing. I’m never going to be as much of a woman as her. I’m not really trans anyway…” etc etc.

Mostly I just recognize this as an unhelpful thought pattern and go do something else for a while (and cuddle Blåhaj). Objectively, I know that these are thoughts that cis women have; it’s just imposter syndrome; I should be comparing progress against my past self and so on, but that really doesn’t help much when I’m feeling jealous.

Sometimes I do get euphoria though, and while I can’t call it up on demand, I do try to remember those times and that I’m doing this to feel good!

Starting HRT made a big difference: I’m in the pipeline now and just sitting around is still working towards my goal. I hope your therapist will get you sorted soon.

<3

You’ve met me, then :3

Thank you <3

Hehe. I’d figured out that not every guy wanted to be a girl pretty early – that’s probably one of the reasons I was repressing so hard. But when I found out that actual trans people didn’t always know, and you could just… be trans if you wanted, that broke my brain :3

BTW, the comic in the fist panel is this one.

Yeah, not talking too much is often a good plan if you want to keep things simple :)

Plus, stuff like nail art of course isn’t exclusively feminine. If I go out with (very) light makeup, in women’s jeans and painted nails, internally I’ll be overflowing with girl stuff euphoria, but to everyone else I’m just some dude. Since my body shape, face and hair aren’t remotely feminine (yet!), there’s not really much to code “woman”. I think I’d have to wear a dress and full-on eyeliner for anyone to notice.

Good advice.

Painting my nails was the first remotely fem-presenting thing I did (other than shaving!). Very few people even noticed. One of the people I work with, after I came out, said I just looked a bit more stylish than usual. The biggest response I got was paying at my local where the owner knows me well – “oh, you’ve painted your nails” / “yup”. And that was it.

Having said that, I don’t have nearly enough courage to go to a salon or anything yet! Let us know how it goes!

Hiya〜♪

I’m the kind of person that can’t get a tattoo because it’s “Permanent”

I had this too! I think it came from an internalized idea of “I must accept the body I was born with.” Gave me a massive crisis when my girlfriend at the time got her ears pierced… I was so close to figuring it all out 20 years ago!

Now I’ve allowed myself to change my body, that’s all just vanished. Still don’t fancy a tattoo though :P

And an awful lot of eggs, I bet. “Well, if you insist”

I decided to not worry about labels and instead figure out what I want. Who cares whether I’m Really Trans™ if I get to have a feminine body – and that’s something (if I’m honest) I’ve wanted so much since… well, as long as I can remember. Do I feel like a woman? Eh, who knows. I certainly never felt much like a man. Or a human, come to that.

And sure, some days I don’t want to look at my dysphoria-inducing face practicing makeup, or listen to my dysphoria-inducing voice doing training, and that’s fine. Put on some androgynous clothes, cuddle up with Blåhaj and Trust the Process while I watch a film or something. More often than not I end up wanting to do something girly anyway after a while.

And some days, when I get the tuck just right, and my hair isn’t too bad, and I’ve got on some nice tight jeans and a cute sweater, I think: “do I want to be a trans woman?”. And the answer is hell, yeah.

Oh I see, well… I suppose it would be rude not to have some, in that case! I don’t suppose you have any progesterone sprinkles? :3

Oh shoot, episode 2 is out this evening, yay!

I will gladly admit to wanting to cosplay Rem.

Now: I have my own Estrogen and cake will make me fat, but let’s hang out.

Past: Nah man, I’m cool being a guy. But we can still hang out. By the way, where do you keep the cake? Just so I don’t accidentally eat any of it, you understand.

Nowhere near as fast as you, but things I’ve noticed so far (from my notes):

• Day 5: reduced BO (why is this never on the charts?), reduced spontaneous erections, libido gone
• Day 10: swollen nipples
• Day 18: definite buds
• Day 24: semi-clear, low volume emission

I had quite pronounced man-boobs already, so it’s hard to tell about breast growth, but I’ve been losing significant amounts of fat everywhere else and I think they might be a bit more prominent than they were.

Not really noticed stronger emotions or anything like that yet, although I am quite a bit calmer / happier. That could just be because I’m facing the right direction now though!

I’ve wondered about Klinefelter too (didn’t have much of a beard until well into my 30s, for example) - will find out next month when I get my test results back.

Happy birthday! Let each year be better than the last!

Howdy ma’am!

Just as you say - if I concentrate I can (sometimes) get a really good bright sound, but maintaining it is going to take a lot of practice so I can do it without thinking. I like the idea of a “reset” word; I’m going to try that going forward.

Yeah, I can control resonance but if I don’t concentrate the finer points (tongue, lips, sharpness etc) tend to drift back to my old voice.

A practice space sounds fun!

There sure are! TransVoiceLessons is pretty well known.

Congratulations, and best wishes for a speedy recovery!

I’m curious what preparations were necessary (hair removal, stopping hormones etc), if any, and how long they took?

Thank you for sharing <3