I’m coming up on one year. Being so far out from where I started, I almost forgot what life used to be like, and how much better it is now. I’ve recently been in a bad headspace, but this helped remind me of some of the good things I have going right now, and why I’m transitioning. Thank you, and congratulations :)
Probably my mental state. My first week on HRT was miserable because I was already super depressed, but I also had TONS of uncertainty about my identity and anxiety about the future for trans people in my country. All the HRT did at first was make me feel more numb and give me a lot of sexual complications, so it felt like my body wasn’t working and it was maybe the most dysphoric I’d ever been.
But then, on week 2 I suddenly wanted to get out of bed? And I could feel emotions again? Food tasted better!? Idk what it was that first week but I’m glad I struggled through it, because now it feels like I’m actually LIVING for the first time in my life. I don’t think it would be an exaggeration to say that every aspect of my life changed for the better. I can enjoy even the mundane, I suddenly have goals I could achieve, I feel closer to all of my loved ones, I can laugh, I CAN EVEN CRY NOW!
Other than that, the sexual changes were very unexpectedly intense, and I mean that in the best way possible haha.