Well yeah. Alito was executing “the plan” they all already agreed on back at the Federalist Society. SCOTUS has been captured by far right forces. The court is illegitimate and corrupt to the core.

I strongly agree

considered myself straight most of my life

I don’t have advice but I relate to you here. I’m also a man and have only come to terms with my bisexuality in the last 3 years or so, but I’m probably older than you. I wonder what the future will hold for me. I’m married so that complicates things, and most of my friends think of me as straight, along with all of my family. I wouldn’t mind them knowing at this point but I just haven’t had a reason to tell them. It would cause some of them stress and I’d just rather not if I don’t have to.

longing for someone to hold me

Here I relate to the specifics of your need/desire but not that desire exactly. I do like being held. To my wife’s credit I feel mostly satisfied there. I feel a strong need to be desired though, suddenly along with all of this, and I feel dissatisfied there. I want to be wanted badly (sexually). An experience with a gay man that never turned sexual at all is at the start of that, for me, just a year or so ago.

I agree with others here that we are all pretty unique, and I extend that to everyone, everywhere. Good for you for working to understand yourself better.