I’ll go firstt:

1: Regularly thinking that girls got all the cute clothes
2: Buying female clothes (skirt and some underwear) for “cross dressing”
3: Feeling physical pain when having to put off bought female clothes to go outside
4: Imagining yourself as the women in porn (that’s why I at first though I was “just gay”)
5: Being sad when thinking about trans people and realising I couldn’t transition because I’m not trans
6: Absolutely suppressing every form of thought when thinking about “the trans topic” (in a way that sometimes I reflected myself and thought that I may be trans, but I 100% suppressed those thoughts knowing damn well, that this wasn’t that much of a good strategy. This also included the thought “acts trans, looks trans, probably is trans”, that crossed my mind after taking LSD for the first time)
7: Dissociating kinda regularly. Happened usually when reading fantasy books. Didnt realise it was dissociation until like 3 weeks ago

Probably missed some stuff but those are the most significant ones. Quite a lot of stuff are signs that appears around the last year or so.

  • Whats_your_reasoning@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    2 days ago

    Is it okay for someone agender to join in this discussion?

    I relate to some of these, but I don’t experience dysphoria. I was raised female but I feel zero attachment to any particular gender expression.

    Some things that come to mind:

    • Never minding when somebody called me “one of the guys”
    • Finding it funny when people mistook me for a boy
    • I was always fascinated by medical shows, especially ones where people transitioned
    • Fantasizing about freely switching between genders
    • I used to make up stories with my dolls where people switched genders. Most of my Barbies got their heads swapped with Kens at some point in time.
    • I hated make up. Still don’t want any. Whenever someone put make up on me, I lamented that I “didn’t look like me.”
    • Dressing androgynously and choosing androgynous hair cuts
    • Purposely shopping for “men’s” clothes to add to my wardrobe
    • Being offended when people wanted to give me a “make over.” I guess this is something girls are supposed to be excited about, but I always thought it was a judgy way to say something was “wrong” with how I presented myself as a woman.
    • Not feeling attached to any particular pronoun. I don’t like being asked about it, because I truly do not care.

    My appearance is unequivocally female today, but it’s not something I care hard enough about to change. It would require significant top surgery. If I lost my breasts I think others would be more upset than I would be - I’d just double-down on the androgynous look I had before these puppies grew so much. I have told friends (both trans and cis female alike) that I’d happily donate breast tissue to them if I could.

    Anyway, so that’s an agendered woman’s experiences.