I’ll go firstt:

1: Regularly thinking that girls got all the cute clothes
2: Buying female clothes (skirt and some underwear) for “cross dressing”
3: Feeling physical pain when having to put off bought female clothes to go outside
4: Imagining yourself as the women in porn (that’s why I at first though I was “just gay”)
5: Being sad when thinking about trans people and realising I couldn’t transition because I’m not trans
6: Absolutely suppressing every form of thought when thinking about “the trans topic” (in a way that sometimes I reflected myself and thought that I may be trans, but I 100% suppressed those thoughts knowing damn well, that this wasn’t that much of a good strategy. This also included the thought “acts trans, looks trans, probably is trans”, that crossed my mind after taking LSD for the first time)
7: Dissociating kinda regularly. Happened usually when reading fantasy books. Didnt realise it was dissociation until like 3 weeks ago

Probably missed some stuff but those are the most significant ones. Quite a lot of stuff are signs that appears around the last year or so.

  • WrittenInRed (She/They)@piefed.blahaj.zone
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    2 days ago

    A lot of mine are the same as ones that were listed, so here are the most stupidly obvious ones I somehow missed (or ignored) for like a decade.

    1. I hoped my future partner would be bisexual “just in case”
    2. Always being weirdly interested in watching trans youtubers and learning about HRT “as an ally”
    3. And also weirdly envious of lesbian relationships, yet finding it hard to imagine myself in a relationship as a guy
    4. Whenever I’d see a transition timeline, my immediate thought for transmasc ones was “good for them!”, but for transfem ones it was “dang, that’s goals” followed by “wait I’m cis, where did that come from”
    5. I “knew” I wasn’t trans, but kinda wished I could be
    6. Just before finally fully admitting I was trans I started HRT so I’d “know for sure”, and was worried that after starting I would realize I wasn’t trans and not be able to keep transitioning lol
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      Oof, I’m right there on #6. I have my estrogen, but I haven’t started it yet, because I want to freeze sperm first, but I have this nagging fear of taking it and realizing I’m not trans enough to keep transitioning. A very cis thought to have, I’m sure.

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        Yeah, honestly that was the thought that finally pushed me over the edge into accepting I was a trans girl instead of nonbinary or genderfluid or something. Like, I wanted so badly to be a girl at that point that my fear when starting HRT wasn’t "what if I’m making a mistake’, it was “what if I don’t get to be a girl”, which was so obviously trans that it was enough even for me lol.