having been raised in this religion the whole thing is a con.

The whole thing runs like god cop bad cop. God is written as ‘terrible’ in the bible he’s wrathful and vengeful and capricious as fuck. Old testament God it’s hard to see as anything short of villanous, outside of Genesis. He really is only ever fucking shit up.

Jesus is the nice guy who protects you from God if you promise to believe in him and pay his agents.