Some stupid meme will appear in my head while I’m in public and a stupid grin will force itself into my face and obviously I don’t want people to look at me and think I’m crazy, or worse ask what I’m laughing about and the only thing that was on my mind was “born to shit, forced to wipe”.
As long as you aren’t hurting anyone, you shouldn’t really waste your time trying to live your life according to how you think other people are wanting you to. Nobody probably is paying any attention to you anyway and even if they do, they’ll forget about you one minute later.