I did all the things. Transitioned. Quit opioids and cigarettes. Went back to school. Got discriminated against and persevered. Quit my last job because of anti LGBT policy and got my dream job.

Oh, and I did all that since 2020.

And it’s a nightmare. I’m isolated. No support, and I found out today my coworkers hate me and think I’m trash.

I don’t know what to do. Go back to school? It’s just going to be more of the same. In the last five years, I achieved more than I ever thought I could. And I’ve never been more alone or miserable than I am right now.

I’m tired of living in a world that doesn’t want me, that I’ll never be good enough for. My parents were right, I’m never going to be good enough.

So what’s the point?

  • pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    9 months ago

    Please, please, seek professional help! You don’t deserve to feel this way and therapy and medication can make an incredible difference. Things are really shitty for you right now and I can hear my past self responding “why bother? Therapy and medication won’t improve the facts my situation” and that’s true but they can help you not feel as bad about them, cope with them, and overcome them. If you have any questions or need help getting started please feel free to dm me. Or even if you just ever want to casually chat

    I’ve absolutely been there and it sucks when you do things that should improve things and can be proud of and you just can’t. It feels awful and that makes it even harder to eek out any enjoyment out of life and therapy and medication can and probably will help break that cycle.