It was 2 years ago in summer. I was a 22 y. o. girl who just broke up with her 24 y.o. boyfriend. After 1 month he asked me to meet with him to discuss some issues. We’ve met in a park. At the beginning he acted normally, but then he started becoming aggressive, we started to argue and all of a sudden he grabbed my throat and started strangling me. I got shocked since he’s like 6’3" tall and strong and I’m just 5’2". But then I remembered that I had a pocket knife with me. So I quickly pulled it out of my right pocket and just plunged it right into his belly up to the hilt. He exclaimed like: “Ugh! Shit! My gut!” and I felt he’s starting to loosen his grip. I pressed the knife as deep as possible into his belly - my heart was racing out of stress as I did it, feeling his soft belly leaning onto my right hand and hearing him moaning deeply like: “Haugh! Hoooooooooooooooogh!” (he just had a really deep voice). Finally, as he took his hands off my throat, I twisted the blade and pulled it out. He clatched his wounded belly with both hands and fell on his knees.
I then called the police and ambulance. Luckily there was a camera nearby, so I could prove myself right. I got justified, my ex survived and got convicted.
Cruel? Of the places to be stabbed, the belly is probably one of the least severe ones, especially on males, so long as you get medical attention. Stabbing in a limb could result in long term damage much more easily.
You were in the process of being strangled, even if in hindsight you think you did, you weren’t making a choice with any thought of it being cruel or not. There was likely adrenaline at that point, and panic. No one could successfully argue you had the presence of mind to make a conscious decision to be cruel.
I’m sure you’ll have lifelong trauma, and might need to seek therapy if you aren’t already receiving it. It sounds like a part of what you’re experiencing is a form of survivor’s guilt. But no, how you got yourself out of that situation wasn’t cruel.
Well, thanks!
Though I think the stab was a really brutal one. There are vitals, aorta, pretty much blood in the belly and I heard that its very painful to get stabbed there. Not talking about sepsis risks. And if on top of that he had a meal just before I stabbed him, that should have been a particualrly excruciating stab.