• Streptember@kbin.social
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    10 months ago

    I don’t want to die.

    What if I die in my sleep.

    What if the house catches fire and I can’t escape in time because I was asleep.

    There are so many other things I could be doing.

    I don’t have enough life left.

    What if I miss something important or cool.

    What if there’s a burglar when I’m asleep and it goes south and they murder me.

    What if I have an aneurysm in my sleep.

    What if I have a stroke in my sleep.

    What if I have a heart attack in my sleep.

    What if there’s a gas leak and the house explodes while I’m asleep.

    What if there’s a CO leak and I just asphyxiate.

    What if I just never wake up for no discernible reason.

    I wanna play more video games.

    I wanna browse the internet more.

    I don’t want to have the bad thoughts come back like they always do when I try to sleep.

    • nachtigall@feddit.deEnglish
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      10 months ago

      Ah yes, the “what if I fall asleep and X happens, I should stay awake” anxiety. Fighting the inevitable…