that this whole thing you’ve been thinking about over the last months is now out, people know about it, people talk with you about it, and it’s actually going somewhere…
I have never been so delightfully terrified and excited at the same time, it’s lovely
I used to call it scared-cited or nervous-cited. Its like you seem to flip between worry and euphoria, right?
Oh yeah, it’s exactly that. Gotta say, I haven’t felt this alive since… can’t even remember
One thing I wish I did before starting was taking one last photo of myself. It’s harder to appreciate the changes when you’re only looking at the bigger picture and don’t notice the smaller, less visible changes.
Ah well, there’s enough photos of me as I am now, half my family are camera nerds. Maybe I’ll actually like having my picture taken when this has progressed further^^
That is a good idea
I like those names! I feel that, and I think my therapist could visiblg see those feelings when we talked about it. Like I started seeming happy but it always quickly turned to fear or sadness.