Pretty sure I fucked up my eyes from psychedelics even though I didn’t trip more than 5 or so times in my life. I took some golden teachers and I noticed that my glasses felt like they were in the way of my eyes. I took them off and I could legit see. I need glasses to see anything that is 2 feet away from me, all I see are huge masses of colors and blobs without them on since I was about 9. Ever since that trip I see weird shit randomly, especially when I’m nervous, it just swirls and flashes. Eye doctor says nothing is wrong, I’m just seeing floaters. Shits weird.
I had heard of it before but hadn’t read much about, mostly from fear that it would be true, like this part of the wiki article hits too close because I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what I’m experiencing. FML.
“Many report that their visual distortions become more pronounced or even emerge during periods of heightened anxiety or stress.”
I’d recommend seeking out a therapist if it causes you distress, specifically one with some clinical interest in psychedelics if possible (keywords include ‘integration therapy’). Know that while there’s still a lot to learn about HPPD, you are not alone, and in a lot of cases it can be managed. It’s mostly a question of recognizing your triggers and developing tools to work through them (so if stress is a trigger, stress reduction techniques; abstinence from cannabis or other drugs if that’s a trigger (pretty common), etc.)
Some folks just kinda roll with it, but there is stuff you can do to help manage.
Pretty sure I fucked up my eyes from psychedelics even though I didn’t trip more than 5 or so times in my life. I took some golden teachers and I noticed that my glasses felt like they were in the way of my eyes. I took them off and I could legit see. I need glasses to see anything that is 2 feet away from me, all I see are huge masses of colors and blobs without them on since I was about 9. Ever since that trip I see weird shit randomly, especially when I’m nervous, it just swirls and flashes. Eye doctor says nothing is wrong, I’m just seeing floaters. Shits weird.
Lol, HPPD goes brrrrr.
I can’t tell you if this is what you’re experiencing, but worth a read if you haven’t come across the term before: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hallucinogen_persisting_perception_disorder
I had heard of it before but hadn’t read much about, mostly from fear that it would be true, like this part of the wiki article hits too close because I’m pretty sure that’s exactly what I’m experiencing. FML.
“Many report that their visual distortions become more pronounced or even emerge during periods of heightened anxiety or stress.”
I’d recommend seeking out a therapist if it causes you distress, specifically one with some clinical interest in psychedelics if possible (keywords include ‘integration therapy’). Know that while there’s still a lot to learn about HPPD, you are not alone, and in a lot of cases it can be managed. It’s mostly a question of recognizing your triggers and developing tools to work through them (so if stress is a trigger, stress reduction techniques; abstinence from cannabis or other drugs if that’s a trigger (pretty common), etc.)
Some folks just kinda roll with it, but there is stuff you can do to help manage.