Not living up to my own potential. I’ve led a pretty uneventful life with few, if any, accolades. I know that I actually have the capacity to be excellent in certain regards, but I can’t seem to force myself to actually put in the work. Doesn’t help that I’ve been called lazy my entire life. Some therapists seem to think a “fear of success” is part of the pathology but I don’t agree. I’ve been extremely intimate with failure my entire life, success is like the one thing I’ve never had and am craving daily.